A Paradise

Anonymous asked: Cfar do n’jet ?

E dua kerrin e shtrejnt dhe dashnin e Shejnt .

Anonymous asked:
i’m very protective of myself. and sure.. i’ve had some times where I want to be saved.. but is it so wrong to want to put trust in someone who loves me?
I want someone to watch me. To notice and care about me. When my energy drops in the middle of an outing, a hand on the small of my back around shady people.
we look out for ourselves and each other.
my therapist told me that I do a good job at protecting myself .. but couldn’t help but notice the pang of sadness that followed.

This one is a little bit messy but I’ll figure it out while i go through it. You’re protective about yourself, that’s nice. That’s great actually. That’s how we all should be. Gotta take care of yourself. And yeah sometimes we all want to be saved. It’s just the human need for another human you feel me. But like the man said, we’re in need of a savior without asking for favors right.
Is it wrong wanting to trust someone who loves you? It is not. If they love you they want your best interest and they’ll take care of you just like you’re taking care of yourself. And there’s nothing wrong wanting someone to watch you and notice you. You know how we always say we want to disappear, we want to get lost. Actually what we really want is to be found. We have this tendency of asking for love in the most unloving ways. And we fuck up our life sometimes just by doing things that way. Suffering in silence is one of them. But yeah, having that reciprocating love, having your efforts come back at you it’s like a glimpse of heaven.
Well you see healing ain’t that easy. Learning how to love yourself ain’t that easy. Cuz if it was, we’d be all doing it but i guess we’re not. Like it takes time. There’s a lot of steps till reaching that point if we were to reach it. Sometimes you feel disappointed, sometimes you feel lonely, sad, angry, upset and all of those. But yet again going through all of those by yourself shows you who’s really there for you. And that’s you. So you get no other choice. You’re doing a good job. I’m proud of you. But you gotta keep going okay.
Keep loving and taking care of yourself.
Good luck and take care 💚